[DIARY] LOVE YOUR IMPERFECTIONS

Jean Li (Singapore) - Viktoria Jean

31 days into 2015 and it has been surreal. I’ve been thankful each day for the people I’ve met, especially to those I’ve learnt to count on for simply being there.

The obstacles in my current career are finally levelling out. I’m beginning to understand why some of my colleagues would fall in love with this jet-setting lifestyle. Don’t be fooled – good money and free travel comes at a price. When I tell my friends about the hardships we face on a daily basis, everyone rethinks the facade of a glamorous lifestyle we lead. A certain kind of sadism cannot be denied (of me) since I’ve stayed beyond my 2-year bond not for the money but the sheer intensity of hard work involved. I love challenges and when they come my way, they become means of making me a better person, because the process of clearing major hurdles forces one into endless introspection.

I like to think that what I’ve really done in this past 2 years was to experience the world, gather my thoughts on living, get to know a lot more people. And then I really want to write them down. Whilst I will leave my job, the journey is not over. For those who can live vicariously through my words someday I hope you know that life is about giving and receiving experiences, not the things you buy or get to keep. I also know that life is not about making sure something or somebody stays in your life as long as possible when you know they are not yours to keep.

2015, I don’t expect you to be awesome. I foresee bad days, heartaches, disappointment and yet another emotional roller coaster ride. But I trust myself to know that when 2015 comes to an end I’ll emerge triumphant with battle scars that makes me both imperfect and wiser. This is what we have to do.

Accumulate experiences like it is the air you have to breathe, for in time to come we’ll have our own stories to tell. Tell yourself to keep going, run the extra mile, and don’t be afraid to fight losing battles, or to lose. Never lose sight of who you were. Never forget who was there for you when you needed them the most. Most importantly, never fall out of love with yourself. Love who you are, and appreciate who you’re not. Embrace and acknowledge all your imperfections. Because the most imperfect people have been through the worst.

“I am not a graceful person. I am not a Sunday morning or a Friday sunset. I am a Tuesday 2 a.m., gunshots muffled by a few city blocks, I am a broken window during February. My bones crack on a nightly basis. I fall from elegance with a dull thud, and I apologize for my awkward sadness. I sometimes believe that I don’t belong around people, that I belong to all the leap days that didn’t happen. The way light and darkness mix under my skin has become a storm. You don’t see the lightning, but you hear the echoes.”
Anna Peters

I want to hear some good stories when December 31st comes round.

xoxo,
Viktoria Jean

viktoriajean

PAUL, Maison De Qualite

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The best flight-less Saturday brunch…
with my favourite nurse!
The waffles were simply HEAVENLY.
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Thank you for the heart-to-heart.
Really needed and appreciated it.
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Kudos to the kind Caucasian lady who took the photograph for us
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And I’m home early for the weekend to bake my family a Rice Krispies batter treat! Dessert ought to be served at any time of day.

she’s all the lifeboats you need

Hands up if you’ve got an eternal crush on Jack Dawson.
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“Well, yes, ma’am, I do… I mean, I got everything I need right here with me. I got air in my lungs, a few blank sheets of paper. I mean, I love waking up in the morning not knowing what’s gonna happen or, who I’m gonna meet, where I’m gonna wind up. Just the other night I was sleeping under a bridge and now here I am on the grandest ship in the world having champagne with you fine people. I figure life’s a gift and I don’t intend on wasting it. You don’t know what hand you’re gonna get dealt next. You learn to take life as it comes at you… to make each day count.” – Jack

too close for comfort

Bangkok Jam and World War Z to celebrate Enkee’s post-23rd
(somehow silly me forgot to take Joyce again…)

Happy ten-years of friendship ENQI!
NYGH wouldn’t have been the same if we’ve never met;
we would have missed out on hiding and talking under the covers of our blue high school jackets (which we NEVER took off unless it’s gym period or physical ed. class) while flunking every single math test right up till O’levels.
So aren’t you glad that the bitchy 13-year-old me had been friends with your twin sister, and together we giggled about your helmet-shaped hair?
I’m kidding ❤ I was a mean kid. Thanks for putting up with me!

And with the theory that Kryspy brought up,
perhaps there’s really a little bit of each of you in me (vice versa)

World War Z is a little too close for comfort,
as if any second now the zombie apocalypse is gonna erupt in our faces because someone out there has been sheltering the ugly truth.
As it is with aliens, extra-terrestials, super-humans, ghosts, pontianaks, vampires, werewolves and any possible supernatural being.
It is never the end. (BRAD PITT’S LAST WORDS, and with that, a sequel is already in the works.)
But seriously, the movie has deviated too much from the book – too heavy an emphasis on cinematic effects and spreading the geopolitical message too thin.
The book that was meant to shed light on pressing global issues became a film on how to machine-gun down the masses of salivating dead people.
Hollywood for you.

One scene that made me crack the hell up – zombies mounting the Great Wall of Israel.1

Maldives – Bandos Island Resort

Sun, sand, sky, sea – recipe for indulgences.
And thus the three of us decided to go chasing dolphins in the setting sun!
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Self-shot with Jocelyn, Brenda and He-Cui.
My hair was especially yummy that day, with a tinge of sea-salt.
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The awesome crew! photo DSCN1499.jpg

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And thus our journey to the centre of the Maldivean Sea begins!
Because that’s where the dolphins roam. photo DSCN1504.jpg

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Can you spot their fins?! *hums the tune of Shark Attack* photo DSCN1524.jpg

Hello adorable little Dolphins!! They were soooo cute as they flipped and jumped up in the air.
The ferry captains were whistling and inviting the dolphins to show their little faces.
And each time one of the dolphins made a circus-worthy act, everyone on the speedboat cheered. photo DSCN1525.jpg

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My Malibu heaven. photo DSCN1549.jpg

Hello there, familiar face. photo DSCN1556.jpg

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Setting sun….
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The three of us were laughing so much, we almost got thrown off the tip of the speedboat when the captain swerved.
Huge rolling waves by the way…
So much fun! photo 312148_10151499582857795_214188067_n.jpg

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Loving Bandos Island on the Maldives. I can’t wait to be back! photo DSCN1603.jpg

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